If I were a boy by Beyonce Knowles

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me
If I were a boyI think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to herCause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boyI would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its brokenSo they think
that I was sleeping aloneI’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home
If I were a boyI think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to herCause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for youYou thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to herYou don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

P/s: I know some people don't quite like Beyonce but I do and I'm not afraid to admit it. Furthermore, most of her songs has meaning in my life..

Are people inherently...selfish??

I've always believed that people are inherently good. I've always tried to give people the benefit of the doubt. I've made excuses for people who've done me wrong. I treat people the way I would want to be treated. AND I've been taken advantage of.

I've always been a friend as best as I can. I'm there for people. I listen and I advise (when asked). I share my knowledge, my food, my home, my money. I've painted rooms, helped clean, given free design work, and treated to dinner when someone's pockets were tight. I send cards or gifts even when I never received one from them. I give rides and do favors and almost never ask for anything in return - and definitely nothing that would inconvenience someone. Where are those who are supposed to be there to bolster me, love me, encourage me?

I dunno. You tell me.

I know people are busy and everybody's got their own "stuff" but are people so self-centered that they can't take the time to make a phone call or reach out to me? Do they think, "Oh, she's , got other friends, so I don't have to invest in that friendship anymore,"?I've gotten to the point where I don't think people are so inherently good anymore. I'm starting to believe people are inherently selfish and all they care about is what they can get from you. I'm tired of getting phone calls only when someone needs something. How about returning my calls when I just want to see how you're doing? Or how about just calling me to see how I'm doing?

SIGH.

Well, nobody likes a pity party - especially me. I just really wonder: What happened to being a friend for the sake of friendship? What happened to being happy for the blessings of your friends instead of being jealous that you don't have what they have? What happened to caring and being there for someone? Is it this crazy money-hungry that breeds this selfish way of life? Is it the commercialism and idea that "whoever has the most toys wins" and that we're all in some sort of competition to get to the finish line first? Is it all about how we were reared by our parents? Too many questions to answer that leave me wondering on that ole saying..."

A friend in need is a friend indeed." But there is also a Latin proverb that says, "If you always live with those who are lame, you will yourself learn to limp." I refuse to limp.

My wish for you...

My wish to all and especially to Betty~ ;)

Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Gentle hugs when spirits sag,
Friendships to brighten your being,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Faith so that you can believe,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
Have a blessed day & smile always~

Don't worry be happy~ *hugs*

Ready for love again..

Take my hand and lead the way;
tell me all you want to say.
Whisper softly in my ear,
all those things I want to hear.
Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
bring out passions deep within.
Pull me close and hold me near;
take away my pain and fear.
In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon,
shine your light.
In the brightness of the sun,
show me that you are the one.
Give me wings so I can fly;
for I can soar when you're nearby.
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
it's time for me to watch it fall.
I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free.
Strip me of my armor tight;
you'll find I won't put up a fight.
Release my soul held deep within . . .
I'm ready now, let love begin.

Hypocrites

Life is sometimes unfair but still we have to deal with it in our own ways. Some people are just purposely want to hurt us by having those negativity towards us. Tell me why should we care so much? Not being selfish, but people can say whatever they want about us. In the end, we know who we really are.

Sometimes people can think of many possible ways to hurt and to let us down. Tell me why should we bother again right? Yes we are not living in this world alone. But those people who try to ruin you are not those who you can consider as your friends. Maybe it's true after all. You can have as many friends as you want, but those you can count on can only be counted with one hand fingers. Tell me why should we cry for them? Because when you need a hand to hold, most of them just are not there. Some of them can just make it even worse.

I've learnt a lot in this life just like everyone else. So as an advice, just take a good care of those people who love and appreciate you for who you are. Those people who brings out the best in you without looking at those negative side of you. Those who find you special and not counting on things that you lack of. Those who would laugh and cry for you and willing to share almost everything with you. Most importantly, you should appreciate yourself because you know yourself better than anyone else. Only you can take care of yourself and only you can make the best and the worst out of yourself. You are the boss of you.

MY NEW LIFE~! *Ahakz*

I can't believe it...AT LAST, I created my own blog!! YAHOOoOO...~ What a relieve.. It feels like it's been years I've said that I wanted to create my own blog and all but as always I would give the same reason like I'm busy and all...oh well when you think about it, even busy people still have their own time to write on their blog... So...let today be MY DAY... MY NEW LIFE which will officially be in MY BLOG...ahahaha... OH.. i feel so HAPPY~! *hugs*Now it's time to settle down and leave something in the time. Wish I can persist in updating this instead of just waste another space. This reminded me times when I was very young I always wrote on my diaries, I'll write secrets and my feelings which I could not share with anyone... The diary was my friend.. I had a lot of diaries, some of them even had a little lock on it. This time,I think it should be a little different. I will keep on updating it. But the problem is... I just don't know where to start.. so many things to say on my blog.. my life has been like a roller coaster as some might say it should be made to a book... Well, what past is past right? Future awaits me.. so let today be a new beginning of a great life.. ;)